Enough. It's a word that rings in my ears of late. Clanging against insecurity, stirring up longing. Am I enough, do I have enough, what is enough?
Quite honestly the answer is no. Nothing is enough, satisfying, or fulfilling; at least not permanently. A quote from a book I love keeps floating to the surface of these messy thoughts. Roughly it says 'life doesn't justify the living, this world is not enough.' It's a concept explored in Mark Buchanan's book "Things Unseen."
Everyday I'm faced with the option of looking in the mirror and pulling on the masks and facades to cover up the lack I find staring back at me.
The question of enough leads down the slippery slope of idolatry. We addictively shove things into the gaping hole of need or pose as savior to those near us with great need themselves.
But Jesus answers with gentle tones of understanding. He offered himself, the only remedy. Believing that anything other than Jesus is enough for our deepest longings and short comings is a ticket to a life of disappointments.
Our marriages, our beauty, homes, children, our relationships, talents, projects, blogs, everything, will leave us disappointed with a gnawing hunger in our hearts and resentment building in our bones.
God is so kind, he uses our hungry dissatisfaction to propel us in search of him. So, in the midst of our restless holiday season, our ever seeking, our not enough, lets call out, "come Lord Jesus and satisfy us today, be our Enough!"
"Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ. For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love he predestined us for adoption to sonship through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will - to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves," Ephesians 1:3-6. Enough!