Heaven

It's funny how are kids reflect us and how often things we're feeling they verbalize for us. I've been really homesick lately, big surprise. I know this is an area of my life God wants complete control of and he's constantly working on that area of my heart.

Today out of the blue Max, with tears in his eyes, said, "I miss Jesus, I really want to go back to heaven and see him." I asked what he was talking about, we had never been in heaven. He said, "well I have, it was in the clouds and Jesus was there. I miss him. " I asked when he had been there and he told me he was there when he was a baby. Now theologically I don't know how that works, but I wasn't going to argue with him. I've heard of people who testify to very young children seeming to remember God or be able to see angels. I don't understand it but my assumption is that the Bible is serious when the psalmist testifies to being formed in his mother's womb. I can only imagine that he is recalling an intimacy that he had with Jesus at his very beginning.

Max often says things that indicate he wants to be in another place or in heaven specifically with Jesus. He's never referring to a physical move, he loves Cody. It amazes me that a small child feels the confines and burdens of this world and knows he wants to be somewhere better. Maybe he's reflecting my longing for a heavenly home. I often weary of the struggle with my flesh and our fallen state, I'm ready for true emancipation. I think it's a sign of the regenerative work of the Holy Spirit even in one so young. He instinctively knows there's something more, a promise yet to be fulfilled. Children are amazing.